2006-06-27

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2006-06-27 06:06 pm

Yeah, so...

Okay, if you have been following my journal at all, you can now call me a whiny complainer. Yes, yes you have my permission.

This afternoon I told my real estate agent to put in an offer for a townhouse. I complained and whined and bitched and moaned about how I couldn't afford to buy anything, but I apparently didn't know what i was talking about, because this place is well within my means. Two levels, two bedrooms (the master three times the size of my current bedroom, the second about one and a half the size), two bathrooms (including an en suite off the master bedroom), a "den" (I put that in quotes because it's not really a den, it's actually a large space at the top of the stairs with a window, which, when I first saw it, I knew was the writing nook I've been looking for), a cute little private patio and a little garden off a grassy courtyard (that is not a throughway), a laundry room with washer/dryer included, end unit (only neighbours on one side), views of trees out of all windows, a lap pool, across the street from a grocery store (thank god) and a pharmacy (do not put anything between me and my shopper's drug mart, I tell you), down the street from a fruit and veg market, ten minutes from a little villagey downtownish space with a nice bakery and restaurants and all that stuff, a walk to the lake, on a major bus route, and the condo fees include A/C, heat, water, and electric. Whew.

I mean, who knows. My agent is putting in a low-ball offer (14K under asking) which will likely be rejected. Maybe I'm just testing it out. Maybe I'm just seeing what it feels like to do this. Maybe I'm calling my own bluff.

But when I went to see it (I've been there twice; once with a friend, and once with my folks), I just felt...well, it felt like home. I could immediately see what I would do with it. It's quirky and a little weird, and it's in a building built in the 60s (I prefer those, because, while they tend to be ugly, they also tend to have quirkier, more interesting layouts and more square footage per unit), but I just felt good in it. I could see that I could make it super cosy and comfortable. I felt like my stuff would fit in there as if it was meant to be there.

After seeing the other condo (which was also within my budget but it was UGLY OMG), I was totally depressed because I didn't think I would ever feel like that in a place in my price range. But the weirdness of this place spoke to me. The front door is on the second level, you know, by the bedrooms. (Isn't that where everyone wants their front door?) The complex is a low-rise, but it's large and sprawling and beautifully landscaped. But you get inside and the halls are kind of dark. There are these service hallways that are just paint and concrete (storage spaces, tunnels to the pool, etc.) It's all a little crazy, but once you're inside...well, I just loved the feel of it. I loved the feeling of space inside it, with the staircase opening up the cieling up to the second floor. I got into it and thought...I could live here.

I think I've lost my mind, doing this now. But interest rates are going up, and what exactly am I waiting for, anyway? So I agreed to put in an offer. And that's my story.

To say I'm a little spazzed out about it is sort of an understatement.
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2006-06-27 11:09 pm
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Moleskine notes

I like to write about process. I find talking about what I'm doing helps me do it (metacognition and all that jazz), and it also invites and prompts others to share their process with me. And thus, I learn.

Because I like to talk about process, people occasionally ask me how I plot/world-build. My answer to this is that lately I write a lot in my moleskine notebook. Beyond that I don't go into a lot of detail. By just saying I write in a notebook, it makes it sound like I write meaningful things in a notebook, doesn't it.

I had some startling realizations today while on the train (and this is why i don't drive! You see? It's all coming clear now, isn't it!), and looking back over my notes, I thought it might be amusing to flip through my plotting/world-building moleskine and share with you some of the amazing insights I felt were worthy of notation at the time. These are all taken from the last two months.

K...oh WAIT. Hell. I think...SHIT. Hmm. Okay K. needs to...shit, no. Okay, he has...some sort of...he might need to...go home first. DAMMIT.

She isn't baking, she's a cook of some variety. Then a conversation, of sorts, where something important can come out. May need to change her name.

It's E. who says they should go to the drive in. She loves movies. Yeah, that will work. That's it!

It opens with the presumption that time has passed.

And then toward the end of the sce...or...no.

I wonder if it would be safe to say that the "threat" of sodomy becomes greater over time. My impression is that sex between men is more common the farther back you go. As you reach a point where sodomy is a thing you do, not the thing that defines you, there is both more and less stigma. Oscar Wilde got arrested for sodomy, after all. But you can probably do it once or twice as a taboo without having to ask yourself too many serious questions. D. can identify with whatever he wants.

I guess it could end with K. doing some other thing later, and seeing D. out of the corner of his eye, but not seeing him again. The disappearing guy. But at the moment: who is K? K, who are you?

Really struggling with this scene. Probably best to go forward and see what I need to find out at this point. Fill in later.
I'm sure you feel most enlightened now.