I hear you. I have an issue with deadlines--anything I'm having fun doing immediately becomes a chore if I have to get it done by a certain time. So there's that, plus health issues that I would need to deal with (if I even can) before I could consider being able to travel extensively, which one has to do in support of one's pro writing, apparently. So I plink away at my original things very slowly and have fun with fanfic (though I've had trouble finishing that, lately, too. *sigh*)