Origins 4

My head is hurting. But, that aside...

Origins 4: One of Us Falls just went out into the world. I think I took the longest time ever between finishing and posting this time. I couldn't think of a title, and I wanted a nifty quotation, which eluded me. I finally went with pretentious:

Oh, that I knew where I might find him,
That I might come even to his dwelling!
I would lay my case before him, and fill my mouth with arguments.
I would learn what he would answer me,
and understand what he would say to me.
Would he contend with me in the greatness of his power?
Job 23:3-6

I chose this one because...er...well, it's Job, and I have Draco really struggling against things he doesn't entirely understand. Now, he doesn't know where to find Harry, but I mean it in the most metaphorical sense. Ya. And I liked the thing about 'come even to his dwelling', because that happens. Draco is like the devil at the door; he's right there, hovering, and he needs permission to enter, and isn't really sure he knows how to ask. Or even if he should go inside at all. But he's looking, and longing, and thinking. And throwing things and yelling and whining and complaining. I would lay my case before him, and fill my mouth with arguments...well, he does talk a good game, doesn't he. I think this is the thrust of it, here. Cause I figure that's what he wants, it's the conversation.

My friend S. says to me, the tragedy is in losing the conversation. A relationship with a conversation, one that you really want to participate in, that's what you mourn in the end. Not anything else, really, the other stuff is just a bonus. How rare is it to find someone who can converse with you on whatever level it is you find yourself. So that's why I liked that bit.

Would he contend with me...I liked this. Now, in Job, he's talking about God, of course. Here...well, that's what Draco wants. He wants someone to contend with him. That's sort of the point of this part, I think.

So read it at my site or read it at ff.net and review it. Yeah. that would be cool.

Well, since I have a captive audience here...I'll tell you the lyrics I would have loved to put up instead:

Every day I fight a war against the mirror
I can't take the person staring back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you annoy yourself
—Pink, Don't let me get me

I just think that fun. Though, not really appropriate for this part. I just like the idea of someone annoying themselves. The other one I think would be funny:

There are many things that I would like to say to you
but I don't know how
Cause maybe
You'll be the one that saves me
—Oasis, Wonderwall

What the hell is a wonderwall anyway? Yes, I'm asking you. I await your answer with baited breath.

reviews

As I just went through this thing with Al about reviews and shit...then I got one that pissed me of. Now, here it is:

*sing song voice*
Some one's been reading the Forbidden gaaaaame........

Now. This pissed me off because it's accusing me of stealing from something, something, for the record, which I've never HEARD of. Now, it would be one thing if I got it in email where I can respond to it and say, 'Oh, which part of my story is twigging you that way, because I don't know what this 'forbidden game' thing is, should I read it?' But no. It's an anonymous review on ff.net, which just let me see that someone thinks I don't come up with my own ideas, well, outside of writing, you know, Harry Potter fanfic(??), and there's not much else I can say.

I mentioned this to kick flaw on #malfoymanor, and she knows this book. She says it's the use of riddles. Well, fuck me stupid. Door, love, you know I didn't snag that from anywhere, don't you? I needed something simple and small to get Draco's attention. I thought about it since the beginning of this fic. I thought about having Draco witness arguments, or witness Harry doing something nice, but that didn't do it. Draco KNOWS Harry can win arguments and stuff. He KNOWS he does nice things. He's watched him rescue people dozens of times before. It had to be something small and silly that Draco would really understand and wouldn't expect Harry to do. And something that Pansy could witness to and not undertsand the way that Draco understands it.

So I went into the shower and I thought riddles. I actually don't know why. Well, because it could be an (ahem) extracurricular activity with no real advantage for the winner. No extra grades, no prize. And something done individually. Something that you do once and then it's over. And then I went and spend a few hours researching riddles. I went through 600 of them online to pick out the best. I have 40 of them. I discovered that I like the rhyming ones best, I think they're pretty. I like the structure.

As I was writing I realized that some of them were shockingly apropos, so I worked them in. And I liked that.

If someone else has done this, bully for them. I am stealing from someone already, her name is J.K. Rowling. I'm not stealing from anyone else knowingly. And I do kinda resent the accusation, you know? I mean....yeah. Where I can't respond to it. Uh huh.

So I took the review off.

I'm such a bitch.

Wicked

Can I put that on my wishlist?

Nice Ass, George

I'm a gazelle. Who knew?

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FYI

I thought you might like to know the results to my personality test:

Paranoid: low
Schizoid: low
Schizotypal: low
Antisocial: low
Borderline: low
Histrionic: high
Narcissistic: moderate
Avoidant: low
Dependant: low
Obsessive-Compulsive: low

Yes, apparently I'm histrionic. How lovely.