Rant and useless tech information follows

I have an ibook. I love it much. I have 192 megs of RAM. I have been running OS 9.2, because OS X makes me feel dizzy, and I don't want to upgrade all my software. I have random OS issues, and I think I now have a hardware problem. That's okay, I'm under warranty. My computer has decided it doesn't want to go to sleep. Ever. And if I close it while it's running, it falls asleep and immediately wakes up again. Very annoying.

I just did a reinstall this morning, so now I'm back to my original 9.0.4. This means I can't run MSN for the moment though, which is fine. I have enough chat programs. (But I can't talk to my dear Aidan! Oh Aidan! How I love thee! I am fully in love with Aidan Lynch. I love with him the way a 27 year old lesbian can be with a nearly 19 year old gay man. I want to send him cookies and stuff. He is a wubby wub.) I think I will let it sit with 9.0.4 for a while, because I'm going to have to take it in and have the nice bookstore computer store guy look at it. This frightens me.

I mean, I can survive without my computer. I've done it before, I can do it again. But I don't really want to. I really don't. I have things to do. You know what I'm saying?

Maybe if I have to leave it with them for an extended period of time (god forbid they have to send it back to apple. Good god. I could possibly deal with losing my computer for a week. But more than that? Oh my god.) I will get a very very nice notebook to do my work in. Because that's what would bother me the most, not being able to work on stuff. I have parts to put out, people, work with me here! I have a original novel to work on!

Hmm.

Right. So I might be without my computer shortly. I can't do anything about it today, as it is a holiday in Canada. (Are we the only people in the world to observe Queen Victoria's birthday?) But perhaps tomorrow, now that I know the OS reinstall didn't fix the problem, it must be hardware. Weep weep. Oy. How this hurts me.

I mean, I'm not worried. I know it's fixable. It's just the prospect, yanno? Imagine how much I would get done if I didn't have my computer for a week. I might go for a walk. Find a job. Talk to friends and family. What a boggling idea, no?

Hmm. I have to go home this week anyway, for my sister's baby shower and possibly for the birth of said baby, I suppose I can just leave the computer in the shop and get out of town.

Yes. I have anxiety about this. Call me crazy. I won't have children, I have my computer. *snuggles ibook*

The Elitism of suffering

Wooohooo another mp3! I'm actually putting this up for a couple of reasons. One, I'm completely shocked that I remember how to play this song. You know those things that you can only do if you start from the beginning, and if you had stop start in the middle you'd be sunk, cause you can't actually remember how to do it for real?

This song is like that. That and I've been contemplating the elitism of suffering as well, which is kind of the subject of this one, an Indigo Girl's cover, The Girl with the Weight of the World in her Hands. Oh yeah. Woohooo! This is for you Slytherlynx. Earnest young woman w/guitar.

She won't recover from her losses.
She's not chosen this path, but she watches who it crosses.
Maybe move to the right, maybe move to the left
So we can all see her pain she wears like a banner on her chest
And we all say it's sad and we think it's a shame
But when she's called to our attention, we do not call her name
The girl with the weight of the world in her hands.

My favourite line though, is

Is the glass half full, or empty? I ask her as I fill it
she says it doesn't matter, pretty soon you're bound to spill it.
With the half-logic language of the sermon she delivers
and the way she smiles at me so knowingly gives me the shivers.

My fingers are slightly sore, but not so bad. The last chord bites, I know. It's a really wonky things I'm doing with my fingers there. I should have just stopped before I got that far. Hehehehee. Still amazed at the quality of the recording off a headset mic....