Everything is New and Different

Good Morning!

New computer, new software, new everything. Am still trying to figure everything out. I have used OSX many times before, so it's not that shocking and new, though it is a significantly different OS for mac, so there is a lot to learn and get used to. I can't get over how SMALL it is. SMALL and white. And quiet. My ibook sounds like an elephant snoring. I wish this one had a handle. I don't really have the right bag for it.

Need a lint brush? Just rub an ibook over yourself. Seriously. My ibook found a feather in my knapsack. A feather. I can't think of how it got there.

Biggest annoyance so far: I need to redo my playlists. Also: no ipod until next week, but that's kind of a blessing to be honest with you. I can only deal with so many new things at once.

OoTP

Today is a bittersweet day, I think.

I mean, on one hand, I can't wait to read OoTP. CAN'T WAIT! I have been a total spoiler whore, though no one has told me anything that's 100% certain so I'm not banking on anything. I can't wait to find out what happens. I'm aching for Harry already. I'm sure he's going to suffer and feel sad and be betrayed, because that's usually what happens. I know that each book is darker than the last, and Harry is going to grow up a bit more in this book. He'll be a new guy, he'll learn things about himself. He'll have qualities and abilities I didn't know about before. I can't wait to find out more about him and his story.

The difference between this book and book 4, for me, is that I care far more about Harry and the outcome of the story than I used to. I mean, I used to enjoy reading about Harry's adventures, I loved him as the hero of books I enjoyed and put aside. I mean, books I read voraciously and then put aside. And then I discovered fandom. I love writing and I love the characters we write, so the 'bitter' part of the bittersweet comes in with trading off what we know for something new, and something we might not like very much. We got ourselves so invested, I guess.

I have no idea how I'm going to deal with the next chunk of information and plot we've about to get. I'm looking at my fanfiction archive and wondering if I should distinguish somehow...make a page for 'pre-OoTP' stories, and another for whatever comes next. Honestly, I don't know what reading this book will do to me. I think it will change everything, as it should. It's all up for grabs. Characterization is about to change as well as chronology. Will this affect OTPs? Of course. I'm sure this book will *ahem* kill some pairings altogether. I'm hoping that one of those dead pairings isn't my own, but who knows? Even if the characters are still alive, events change our minds. Or my mind, at least.

So in case I lose it after this weekend, I'd like to wish a hearty fare-thee-well to my darling OTP, Harry/Draco. It's been a trip. I still think you two would be adorable together. Be good now.

It's very zen, really. The doors are opening, it's time for a spring cleaning. I can't wait to see what happens next.