No, you're right. I can't really explain it. I've known this guy for years online as a friend, and when we met in real life...I just knew. It was him or nobody. Not because he's male, certainly not, just because he's him. I guess partly I was getting a bit tired of the whole gay thing (well, I mean, the politics and the identity issues and all that) and the whole dating/relationship thing. I decided to stay single, so I wondered how best to identify myself. And I started thinking that I've never really been attracted to anyone's gender, and I'm not very visual, it has always been just about people. But I think I held myself back a bit as part of my identity, not acknowledging any feelings for the "wrong" people (though I can't really definitively state that I had any, it's just a suspicion). So I thought, okay, let it go, just don't pin yourself on any identities and see what happens. I was cool being single, I bought a condo, I was doing really well, so I didn't need anyone. And then I met up with Mr. Blossom, and it all just made sense.
But I don't think very much about me has actually changed, but this works. What can I say. :)
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Date: 2008-07-13 06:27 pm (UTC)But I don't think very much about me has actually changed, but this works. What can I say. :)