Things I've learned today

[ivyblossom]

First, things really too look nicer if you bother to iron them. Mom, you were right.

Second. I was reading some comments on something or other and andi_sunrider, who I met while I was in Vancouver some weeks back, says that I am funnier in person.

Well, colour me shocked. I didn't think I was funny in the first place, to be honest with you, and I sure didn't think I was funny in person. I can't think of a single funny thing I said the entire time I was in Vancouver. I think I mentioned the weather a few (hundred) times.

Honestly, I never thought of myself as funny until this whole fandom thing happened. My fics are generally not funny, unless they are funny. I mean, unless they're parodies, and then they're kind of funny. But between me and luciusmalfoy, I always thought of her as the funny, cutting edge one and me as the, hmm, blabby, over-enthusiastic, over-educated, hurt/comfort swoony OTPer. I'm the one with the bowl of granola and the lesbian feminist commie pinko politics. I'm the earnest girl with the guitar.

I didn't think I was particularly funny or interesting in my personal life until I was out with some high school friends recently and I said, "Oh, me and B. always have the most interesting conversations." (This would be because we just talk about sex a lot.)

"Ivy, you could have an interesting conversation with yourself," my friend A. said. Other friends agreed.

I was about to say, "What the heck does that mean?" but then I realized that that's pretty much what this livejournal amounts to, so I shut up. That might not be about funny so much as weird, but we'll leave that well enough alone.

Since I'm navel-gazing long and hard, I'll also mention that another word that comes up to describe me is "cute". Once, in a seminar, I was getting very excited about the topic and I said, "Okay, bear with me, I haven't thought this through but I want to dump it out there and see where it goes," and then took a breath, and this girl, phd student in the Harvard history of science department, I mean, in the middle of this intense seminar, laughs. She laughs and says, "Oh Ivy you're so cute!" I was floored. I mean, holy throw me for a curve. I think I turned pink and then laughed and kept going. My professor was kinda like, "Whaaaaa?" I have no idea what that meant either.

So a few months back I was out with an old ex of mine and we were having lunch and I said something or other that was not funny I thought, and she laughed and said, "Oh Ivy. You're so cute!"

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS. I am not cute. I mean, I'm not cute in any traditional way. I'm 5'7, I'm a size 14, I have bazoombas that could kill your sister. I'm really very plain-looking. I don't think this has to with that kind of cute. Is it just that I take myself too seriously?

So the point of this navel-gazing post: I must have one really wacked out sense of self-image, because I hardly understand why I get called these things. Though I think I can live with both "cute" and "funny". I know I get called other things behind my back (things that rhyme with 'hitch' and 'bunt') that are probably worse, so I shouldn't complain.

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[maruchina.livejournal.com]

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<iMy fics are generally not funny, unless they are funny.</i>

LOL that certainly made me laugh. And yes, you are funny, that's connected to your cuteness, I think. Yes.