Things I've learned today

[ivyblossom]

First, things really too look nicer if you bother to iron them. Mom, you were right.

Second. I was reading some comments on something or other and andi_sunrider, who I met while I was in Vancouver some weeks back, says that I am funnier in person.

Well, colour me shocked. I didn't think I was funny in the first place, to be honest with you, and I sure didn't think I was funny in person. I can't think of a single funny thing I said the entire time I was in Vancouver. I think I mentioned the weather a few (hundred) times.

Honestly, I never thought of myself as funny until this whole fandom thing happened. My fics are generally not funny, unless they are funny. I mean, unless they're parodies, and then they're kind of funny. But between me and luciusmalfoy, I always thought of her as the funny, cutting edge one and me as the, hmm, blabby, over-enthusiastic, over-educated, hurt/comfort swoony OTPer. I'm the one with the bowl of granola and the lesbian feminist commie pinko politics. I'm the earnest girl with the guitar.

I didn't think I was particularly funny or interesting in my personal life until I was out with some high school friends recently and I said, "Oh, me and B. always have the most interesting conversations." (This would be because we just talk about sex a lot.)

"Ivy, you could have an interesting conversation with yourself," my friend A. said. Other friends agreed.

I was about to say, "What the heck does that mean?" but then I realized that that's pretty much what this livejournal amounts to, so I shut up. That might not be about funny so much as weird, but we'll leave that well enough alone.

Since I'm navel-gazing long and hard, I'll also mention that another word that comes up to describe me is "cute". Once, in a seminar, I was getting very excited about the topic and I said, "Okay, bear with me, I haven't thought this through but I want to dump it out there and see where it goes," and then took a breath, and this girl, phd student in the Harvard history of science department, I mean, in the middle of this intense seminar, laughs. She laughs and says, "Oh Ivy you're so cute!" I was floored. I mean, holy throw me for a curve. I think I turned pink and then laughed and kept going. My professor was kinda like, "Whaaaaa?" I have no idea what that meant either.

So a few months back I was out with an old ex of mine and we were having lunch and I said something or other that was not funny I thought, and she laughed and said, "Oh Ivy. You're so cute!"

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS. I am not cute. I mean, I'm not cute in any traditional way. I'm 5'7, I'm a size 14, I have bazoombas that could kill your sister. I'm really very plain-looking. I don't think this has to with that kind of cute. Is it just that I take myself too seriously?

So the point of this navel-gazing post: I must have one really wacked out sense of self-image, because I hardly understand why I get called these things. Though I think I can live with both "cute" and "funny". I know I get called other things behind my back (things that rhyme with 'hitch' and 'bunt') that are probably worse, so I shouldn't complain.

Comments

[ari-o.livejournal.com]

my rather uninformed opinion is that both you and aja have a similar "I am totally passionate, smart, and earnest" kind of cuteness.

I think it simply resonates with people the way puppies and kittens are cute and one just wants to snuggle them.

except this is a sort of intellectual snuggling.

well. i tried...

Does this help?

[ixchelmala.livejournal.com]

You are genuine in your manner, which many people are not used to seeing, so they say cute. Modesty aside for me, but it happened to me lots in years past... still kinda does. This part of your post alone:

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS. I am not cute. I mean, I'm not cute in any traditional way. I'm 5'7, I'm a size 14, I have bazoombas that could kill your sister. I'm really very plain-looking. I don't think this has to with that kind of cute. Is it just that I take myself too seriously?

Conjures up images of you stamping your foot in a huffy fit, trying to figure out what is the deal when the rest of us see you as being so confident in your questions and observations of the world around you.

And yeah, the other words apply too. It just depends on what you show and what other choose to see.

I forgot to say...

[ixchelmala.livejournal.com]

"Conjures up images of you stamping your foot in a huffy fit, trying to figure out what is the deal when the rest of us see you as being so confident in your questions and observations of the world around you."

This is what many see as cute.

As for taking yourself seriously, I think you take yourself as seriously as you feel the need to, as the occasion calls for.

:: hugs ::

[bexless.livejournal.com]

*I* think you're adorable.

Especially when you're tuning your guitar and procrastinating madly. Or! Getting all frustrated when we're talking and I can't explain what I mean.

Adorable.

[snooks-ranting.livejournal.com]

Of course you're cute, honey. You're sincere, enthusiastic, and sweet. You're a well-meaning, nose-rubbing, OTP-ing, left-handed mac-user in search of her missing gay. And if that's not cute and funny, I don't know what is. Smooch.

[novembersnow.livejournal.com]

On the subject of The Cuteness of Ivy, I have but one thing to say as evidence:

*rubs noses*

Hon, if that ain't cuteness, I don't know what is.

you are cute

[(Anonymous)]

Ivy, you seem cute to me. Though I don't know you very well. I've read lots of your work and I check your lj daily and still I feel like I don't know you but what I do know, what I've read, gives me the image of a most interesting, cute, creative and adorable girl. And I'd like to call you 'nice' too. (However I don't really know you).

Greetings,
Louis

Re: you are cute

[(Anonymous)]

((I forgot to mention I adore your *nose rubbing* and I'm sad because you're still missing your gay. I hope you'll have it back soon.))

[harrietpotter.livejournal.com]

::dies:: That icon!

[maruchina.livejournal.com]

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<iMy fics are generally not funny, unless they are funny.</i>

LOL that certainly made me laugh. And yes, you are funny, that's connected to your cuteness, I think. Yes.

[kerri]

I have to agree with other people here on the "rubs noses" thing. That is pretty darn cute. :D

Not to worry, though. I get called cute too, and I'm not exactly sure why. A couple of weeks ago I was in the Armchair chat and I said something and someone else in the chat said "You are so cute!". I was like o_O; (since it was a chat) and was rather surprised. I don't really understand why people call me cute, but they do.

As for funny, I think you're very funny, at least from what I've seen of you on your LJ. I mean, come on, Rah rah raspoutine? :P *hugs*

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

[and i tell you this with authority, because i've heard you talk, and so on...]

Ivy? You're Really Very Cute.
i think it's a charm thing. like in D&D! you just have it. the zing. the deal. the cuteness!! :D
*laughs and laughs* >:D<



um. btw. do you get your comments emailed to you? just in case i -do- actually get to feedbacking your fics ><;;

[ivyblossom.livejournal.com]

*phone*

Emailed comments, yes. Hehehehehehhee.

[melieltathariel.livejournal.com]

Well, you are funny. And of course the "cute" wasn't meant to be in a physical way (although I have no idea if you're cute in a physical way). But I can understand describing you as cute.

[ashkitty.livejournal.com]

I think you're cute!!

[twiggymolly.livejournal.com]

O.K. I only know you through your writing, so If this is out of wack, that could be why.

You appear to be rather endearing, like a favorite dessert at a special restaurant at the beach you only get to twice a year. It is all warm and gooey in the right places with extra crunch on the side. The plate is artfully decorated with chocolate sauce and lemon zing and powdered sugar. The waitress beams at serving you and you just know it is going to be as spectacular as the last time you had it. The flat wear is adorned with your favorite cartoon character and you sit in a oversized cozy banana seat.

Twiggymolly

[andi-sunrider.livejournal.com]

Perhaps funny didn't completely describe you. You're funny in a cute, random way. Like someone else said, you are incredibly earnest about everything. And you have the most intersting insights into incredibly random topics that I just find incredibly hilarious. And your gifs-- come one. The beer? Hilarious, and I don't even like beer! Incredibly insane things happen to you, and you just take them in stride (Tornados? No sweat.... As long as you wake up. Pregnant campers and their partners making you their gay role model, and naming their baby after you?? a certain celebrity stealing your gay? dropping small children? Who else has this happened to?), with your own little witty sense of humour. I don't think that you're funny only because of the humour in your fics, you're funny because you just... are... You're really amusing to listen to...It's kinda related to the cuteness....

[molliee.livejournal.com]

Well, I adore you and rather fancy you actually. You're the reason I ever bothered to find out what lj was, and I've been happily swooning over you ever since. Seeing as I've never met you, or spoken to you, or seen you...it must be your personality that's hooked me in. So, yeah, think you're extremely cute.

Um, I also want Digikym, but she's all loved up now. Which is nice for her obviously.

*is fangirl....doesn't care*

Hmmm...

[(Anonymous)]

Whether or not you're cute I couldn't really say since I never seen you.
But you are funny. Not funny in a hahaha sort of way, but funny in an interesting, you amuse and intrigue me sort of way. Anyway, I like you, or I wouldn't be reading this lj every day. Oh yeah, and then there are your H/D fanfics. Like I said before, your writing is beautiful.

[mawaridi.livejournal.com]

Oh, you are funny. And cute in an "I don't know you and I've never spoken to you" sort of way. You always make me giggle. And being cute is not necessarily a bad thing - I've been called cute way too many times, and it always used to annoy me and make me demand to know why, but now I take it as a compliment and don't stress *S* They think you're cute! Cute is Good!

But people call you a snitch and a runt behind your back?? That's so...mean ;)

[star-gazer86.livejournal.com]

I'm 5'7, I'm a size 14, I have bazoombas that could kill your sister.

Hah! See, you personality in itself makes you sound extremely cute! I've never met you(although i'd love to, just isn't very likely), but i read your journal daily(and love your H/D fics), and you have this aura around you that just yells cute and! Hah, anyways, hope you get your gay back soon, that is unless you and that nice 'Mac Man' get together! =)

[wildendeavour.livejournal.com]

Have never been called 'cute' before in my life. Guess that is a good thing, seeing as I am not cute and do not want to sort out this self image thing.

[rinkori.livejournal.com]

Is it better to have people call you "not cute"?

"Oh, Ivy, you're so uncute!"

Just kidding. Ivy = trés cute.

*is incoherent*